Monday morning...

I am home right now, taking a sip of my coffee with milk and enjoying the sun coming in from the window. Last Wednesday was my last day at work. The boy, who's got a sense of humour,  got me flowers with a card that reads: "Proficiat, gestopt met werken", something along the lines of "Congratulations, you stopped working". These cards are obviously meant for people on their retirement. Anyway, I am kind of happy because this situation gives me lots of time to think, to put things back in place. I needed a break from the constant rushing out of the house, from the commute at rush hours (2 hrs. 30 min in all), from being tired all-of-the-time, from feeling I wasn't really doing anything with my life by doing a job a robot could do (in fact, one of the reasons my contract was not renewed is that we are being replaced by computers). So here I am, figuring out what to do with my time. So far I've baked peanut butter cookies and I am quite proud of myself for finding a frying pan at half-price, since the one we had was umm.. not non-stick anymore (how domestic). I plan on reading, on letting all the stress go, on baking lots of new things, taking my time to cook and well, let's see what else I can come up with. Of course the obvious thing to do would be to volunteer at the local animal clinic, but I am not sure I want to work "for free", I always end up feeling undervalued, and like it leads to nothing, so if I do it, I am going to have to convince myself that it's worth it, so that I don't lose the motivation.  We'll also be going to Istanbul soon, so I am looking forward to that. I just feel so drained...